That is all that I can remember about having this stroke. I had either passed out or my brain shut-down and had gone into survival mode; I really can’t remember, even to this day. The next thing I CAN remember is waking up and I discovered that I was in Santa Rosa Memorial hospital, (80 miles south of Willits) and that it was March 3, 1982. I had lost the whole month of February! The last thing I remember was being in the shop working… then I discovered that I couldn’t move any part of my right side, it’s just lay there.
I think I somehow knew what had happened to me, but it could be that 39 years later I just remember it differently, only God knows. Now, while writing this it’s not really the way it seems, I mean I couldn’t speak; I couldn’t get out of the bed and walk; I couldn’t ask questions; it was like I was trapped inside of my body that just a month ago worked perfectly fine, and now, not so much! So, all of this was very unnerving to me, to say the least and I was freaking out inside and couldn’t express it to anyone and the only thing I COULD do easily was cry… and for a good long while, that’s exactly what I did. Even today I don’t handle pressure very well and when it comes I tend to go back inside of myself and I usually end up crying because of that. I suppose it’s the minds defense mechanism, but I just don’t know. I’ve read that it typical for stroke victims to have these feelings.
SO, I hope to see you around next post. I try to express my memories the way I remember them but as it’s been decades my memory has seemed to dull… if you have any thoughts or experiences of your own and would like to express then, just leave a comment and I will try to answer it…
To God Be The Glory!